.. i ain't doing this shit again!!!!!!
School started and well, it sucks. One of the professors that I greatly despise for giving me a lowmark is my prof again. I’ll tell you the complete story when I’m not too busy that’ll be 40 years from now. And oh, if you’re wondering about my supposedly boy at the moment, well, I’m trying to erase him from my memory cuz the asshole deserves no space from it.
Last Wednesday, I was supposed to meet somebody and he ended up canceling a day before cuz he have work. So I ended up looking for someone trying to get the suppose “itch” out of me. So I went online looking for someone and I did found one. I was very skeptical cuz it will be the first time that I’ll try it with someone outside of a relationship. So I was really scared. Plus, I’m afraid that I might pick up some STD cuz I don’t that person that well and I end up telling everyone “I have never been so promiscuous in my entire life, huhuhu, Joey pointed the gun on me”.
In the end, I did met him and we went to my place, but to make the short story shorter, after that shit, I regretted it. And I swear to your God I’ll never do it again. I didn’t enjoy it as much as I thought I would, actually I didn’t at all. I felt like I was forcing myself to do it, man, I just wish I could be like brew, sleep around like nothing else matters, me included.
Last Wednesday, I was supposed to meet somebody and he ended up canceling a day before cuz he have work. So I ended up looking for someone trying to get the suppose “itch” out of me. So I went online looking for someone and I did found one. I was very skeptical cuz it will be the first time that I’ll try it with someone outside of a relationship. So I was really scared. Plus, I’m afraid that I might pick up some STD cuz I don’t that person that well and I end up telling everyone “I have never been so promiscuous in my entire life, huhuhu, Joey pointed the gun on me”.
In the end, I did met him and we went to my place, but to make the short story shorter, after that shit, I regretted it. And I swear to your God I’ll never do it again. I didn’t enjoy it as much as I thought I would, actually I didn’t at all. I felt like I was forcing myself to do it, man, I just wish I could be like brew, sleep around like nothing else matters, me included.
posted by riddler at 9:58 AM
1 Comments:
I just wish I could be like brew, sleep around like nothing else matters, me includedBhe, you were never included i those one-night stands I have had. What I had for you was real and is real still. You may think it otherwise but I can't blame you. I have been so cruel to you, your feelings, hurting you like a pricking needle. I am sorry. I really am.
But please, I beg of you, never dismiss what we had as some sort of scratch-my-itch thiny. I love you Bhe. But a relationship is just something I can't give right now. :(
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