this is it....

This is really it it’s final, my hunch was true, I haven’t read his blog yet when I mentioned that if it was his ex he would come back to him in an instant, and I was so right. God, I hate him and I hate myself more. Taena, yoko na talaga, can’t take it no more, I really can’t, I feel like slowly dying, and I ain’t kidding. God, I wish I can go back to what I am before, I wish I never met him. I wish I never tried this silly way of life… I just can’t stay here anymore.. I need to get out of this shit cuz it brought me nothing but pain… a short fun time yes, but that can’t equate to the hell I am going through right now. This has been he most depressing time in my life and more of this, god forbids, I know I won’t be able to take it no more. I just hope it doesn’t happen… I really hope so….