Monday, December 20, 2004

Death all over... but Brew is alive!!!

Death is everywhere… am sure glad it ain’t hit this part of the realm… in case it does, the 3 useless dogs in this house will be the perfect choice…

I am pissed beyond description with our professor in Info. Tech. Given the chance, I would definitely kick his ass or maybe screw him with something sharp so the friggin’ fag would learn her lesson. Grrr… he’s stupid, arrogant and demanding… as if I can learn a lot from him!!! Screw him….

Brew and I finally met up, after more than a month, I was excited to meet him, I love him still, although I am not sure as to what extent that love reach…. I’m not sure whether I love him as a really special friend or romantically… whatever it is… I love the guy….

He looked a little different, he said I’m getting whiter (thanx to Mae’s papaya soap). We met at Figaro, and he still smokes, surprisingly! We looked for a place to eat and we decided to go to Shakey’s. Usually, when it’s meal without rice, I don’t get full… but that Bunch of Lunch was something…. I was stuffed for the next 5 hours… We didn’t watch any movie cuz there was nothing shown that entice me into it…. We decide to just head home…

We watched Stepford, it’s the third time I’ve seen it, and man, I still laugh as if there’s no tomorrow.. we also saw the butterfly effect and well, let’s just say Mariah’s butterfly had more effect on me…. Then we had the talk, and routinely, I asked him, he declined…. Even adding that if he ever have a bf at the moment, he’d probably just cheat on him… cuz he really loves Marvin, and he loves me as well, but I don’t believe it anymore or at least buy it… the latter that is….

It was fun having him around, it’s what I thought the most secure I ever felt… he went home early the next day, I dropped by our place and something astonishing cropped up, my little sister, spontaneously hugged me. That was the most secure I’ve ever felt, I was delighted at that moment, I was in ecstasy… wouldn’t exchange that for anything….

I’ve already done about a quarter of my Christmas shopping, I’ve got 5 days to go before Enteng Kabisote day,. Yup, you read that right, I’m watching this shit. It’s a tradition of our family to go out during holidays and watch a movie, last year we separated cuz they watched some crazy cheap movie, while my sister and I saw Crying Ladies. Since I found the trailer of the movie very interesting, I’d go ahead and watch it…

I’m glad that I’m okay now... sober and tranquil at the very least. I remember telling Naig that I’ve given a cut-off date for our relationship. Ends up, we lasted for just a month… man, I keep on remembering that song from Kyla which is so perfect for my situation right now…

All I ask is just a little HONESTY though I know, that you’re NOT coming back to me….

2 Comments:

Blogger GQMikey said...

awww...hang in there buddy. there is someone perfect for you. soon you will find. Your true love will be like a isotoner, wrapping loving arms around your angelic soul. keeping you safe and giving you affections forever and ever. Hugzzz from Mikey

8:07 AM  
Blogger Unknown said...

iwan mo na yan... tau nalang.. mas bagay tayo kasi girl boy relationship na... iiwan ko si..... para sayo gusto mo? we dont need them.. but we need money... dont porget dat

11:19 PM  

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