the brilliant plan.......

I am leaving him for good. At least for the next 2 weeks, he owe me a treat and at least that it’ll be a way for me to figure out if I still have a thang for him after that bound to be exigent time period.

The two-week plan includes the following:

Starting tomorrow night, I will no longer visit his site, nor entertain any text messages unless they’re critical in nature such as him being involve in a crime (rape, murder, smoking arrest not included), him being fatally injured (cutting his finger, headache and the likes), or him being seriously wanting to get back with me again (unlikely, but a boy can still hope). Even an SMS containing the words I love you and I miss you or Reply ASAP or text back if does not follow the above given conditions, it shall not be answered or entertained. If you’re wondering why I have to start it tomorrow night not tomorrow morning cuz he might still post sumtin tomorrow morning, wouldn’t wanna miss it.

I will not talk about him with my friends or whoever unless it follows the conditions given above starting the day after tomorrow, which is the next day. Why Friday? Because I have to talk to someone about this plan of mine tomorrow.

I will try to find someone new, entertain new “suitors” and actually be really open to the idea of committing again.

All this shit shall stop if it is time for him to treat me.

All this shit shall stop if I’m already in love with somebody new especially if more than I loved him.

I am determined to pursue this. It’s a start. I shall be strong, can’t afford to be weak again. If this shit don’t turn up good or no positive results have been observed then I’m bound to be a whore for the rest of my life and make him feel bad and be burdened by it.. or better yet kill myself, that’s a good payback.


By the way I met CRV and well, he quite turned out to be the guy who I thought he was, arrogant and stubborn and insecure. Always worried that people might think he’s a fag, that well in fact he is. I mean, c’mon he’s trying so hard to look straight that he might as well be gay. He stayed here in the house for a couple of hours and well, nothing happened, and I’m glad about it cuz he looked like a walking fry pan.


Leinna and I got the chance to seriously chat yesterday, he’s the guy I cheated with during my relationship with Brew. He shared to me that he might go for an SO with Hoy! Well, I thought it’s stupid or he’s faking it like most of the things he say or do. He’s a smudge, and he’ll always be one. Poor Hoy he’s bound to be in pain. I think he’s trying to tell me this so I’ll get jealous well, I kinda am but only because I never got the chance to crack him and it’ll be a shame (impossible actually) that Hoy would do it. Pathetic!


This girl who messaged me in friendster, well, she told me that I might like to know his “straight” friend who had a relationship with a bi guy, but he’s straight—yah right! I told her, that I actually wanted to get to know her cuz she’s pretty open-minded one of the things that I am looking for in a girl, and one of the things Eniarrol never was. The downside though, he’s from Legaspi, Albay.. nice try nigga….